[savealife723]

I hate how you can't look me in my eyes anymore without wondering when i'm going to kill myself.
I hate how you see my scars, and run from me, as if my self-harm is contagious and you will soon catch it.
I hate how you say you're worried about me, but then you just make me feel like shit and call me rude names.
I hate how everything I say, you turn it into a goodbye letter as if I'm just going to stop breathing in the next two seconds.
I hate how you can't think about me anymore without picturing a funeral being held.
I hate how you say you want me here, but everyday you call asking if I killed myself yet.
I hate how everything was revolved around you, until now.
I hate how you never got any of the clues, but know that you know, it's all you notice.

i was always there for you when you needed someone to hold you while you cried, I was always there for you when you didn't know what to do anymore, and I was the one who walked all the way to your house to give you the teddy bear that you left. Grow Up. It's not all about you. I'm happy that you found a new girlfriend. You two will be great for each other. But that doesn't mean just leave me there. I mean, I told you my biggest secret, and now it's all you think about. You flat out told me that you expected me to kill myself, and that you were just waiting now. I don't think that equals a good friend, but I just come back to you every single time. And I hate it. I'm always there again when you call me crying in the middle of the night scared. James, I know you're scared. But so am I. and I don't know what to do anymore.
Please don't worry about me.