[Little Joanna]

Thanks for the replies guys =)

I guess this situation is a little strange to me, as I've never really had a genuine group of friends I can trust. I agree ith you Melissa, I think a new hobby is a great idea =) and I'm currently job hunting so hopefully a lot of my spare time will be taken up too ^

I guess I am just paranoid about losing them. I'm already devastated because two of my friends are moving out of the house, so my routine is already gonna be messed up soon enough. I'm kinda scared of change, I suppose. =(

I just wish I wasn't so nasty to my parents. They're not exactly loving, comforting parents but it would be nice to have a laugh with them sometimes, and not feel so angry. Sometimes I get snappy at them for no reason, and it makes me feel so guilty afterwards. I guess that has a lot to do with the 'empty' feeling as well, because it makes me feel even worse :/ I guess I still haven't forgiven them for things that happened in the past

I just need to learn to accept change, I guess.