I have a fantastic group of friends who I hang out with a LOT of the time. Four of them own a house together, so the rest of us tend to go up there and hang out as much as possible, we're like a big silly family.
Anyway, I really do spend a huge amount of time with them all. This week, I spent about four days in a row at their house. However, the *moment* I came home I felt totally empty. I felt like I needed to call one of them or go back round there as soon as possible. I'm sure they'd welcome me back but I don't wanna annoy them, and also... why do I feel so bad so quickly?
It's not even as if I just miss them, I honestly feel totally and utterly empty. It makes me feel guilty because I haven't spent a lot of time with my parents or younger sister, and when I am home I just get snappy with them. Sometimes I can't sleep at night because I want to be there so much.
I don't want to feel like this because I
can't be there all the time, it is the place I'm happiest but I really want to distance myself slightly and not feel so dependant on them. It must be incredibly annoying for them too... I guess these people are the first genuine group of friends I've ever had, so I'm getting kinda clingy.
I just wanna get rid of this awful empty feeling, it really does feel like it's hurting in my chest.. I feel so pathetic :/