well, i have to live here, i cant go. i am too afraid to do sth, i dont know what he would do
i still feel the same way about my boyfriend, i really love him. i dont want to hurt him with my SI so i want to stop. he is the only one who understands me ever, but i hurt him with the cutting. he cried when i told him and needed help.
i feel so guilty that i want to cut right now!
my parents dont understand me. i have a sister who is 3 years old, and she is all they care for. they dont see it when i am sad or even badly hurt ( i am clumsy
). my mum hears the things my dad says, but she does nothing. i guess she thinks the same way or that i deserved it. i guess i have.
now they dont know that i am cutting again, if they would, my dad would probably hit me, throw me out etc.
2 more years and i can legally move out. i cant wait.