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Re: After 2 years.. cutted again :/ - August 20th 2009, 07:24 PM
my dad kinda hates me, ignores me sometimes, says i should die and my friend ignores me again. thats why i started.

i dont even remember how i stopped, i just know that my parents found out and it was really bad then ( they controlled me etc ) so i guess i was too afraid. the situation wasnt that bad like now.

the thing is, i just dont want to cut bc of my boyfriend. i know i should stop but i am weak. i cant do it like last time. the whole day i have these urges to cut, and they are really bad. and about the alternatives, i tried that but i feel loads better after cutting, so there's the problem.

i am such a failure.


And the worst part is
before it gets any better we're headed for a cliff.
And in the free fall
I will realise I'm better off
when I hit the bottom.


this is how we dance when they try to take us down.