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After 2 years.. cutted again :/ - August 20th 2009, 02:12 PM
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3 days ago i started cutting again, my legs are full of cuts. i get angry when i see the cuts are slowly fading so i make new ones. when i am bored i cut. :/
i guess the knife is my new best friend now.
god, i throw 2 years away.. i cant believe that.
the cutting makes me feel better but guilty at the same time. my boyfriend thinks it's his fault bc he said he has to look after me so i wont do it.
i dissapointed him, i feel so guilty. i said i wont do it.
i dont want him to feel guilty bc its not his fault. its my dad and my friend who ignores me again. its so too much for me

i dont know how to stop this, it feels just too good.


And the worst part is
before it gets any better we're headed for a cliff.
And in the free fall
I will realise I'm better off
when I hit the bottom.


this is how we dance when they try to take us down.