[XbeyondthisworldX]

1. Stop toying with my emotions. I actually do like you, so don't tell me you love me, if you don't.

2. Don't act like a good best friend, when you KNOW I'm the one ALWAYS working to make this friendship work, and I'm the one making plans, calling you, trusting you, trying to talk to you, but you always just sit back and watch this "perfect friendship" fall into place, BUT IT'S NOT JUST FALLING INTO PLACE, I'M WORKING MY ASS OFF FOR IT, AND YOU DON'T DO ANYTHING.

3. I'm sorry. I wish I could take back what I said in the past. I didn't mean any of it. I wish we could be great friends again, but that'll never happen, and it's so unfortinate.

4. I miss you. I always have, and I always will. I LOVED you, and I'll never forget that feeling, you could ALWAYS come to me if you wanted to, because I"ll ALWAYS be here for you, you were my best friend for years, and my first boyfriend, and my first love.

5. Thank you. You're so great to me. You let me vent when I need to, and you're always there for me when I need to cry. I wish I could repay you for all of the long nights, I'm hardly there for you the same way you are for me. You are always teaching me so much about life, and I trust you so much. I wish that I was better at trusting people, but I'm bad at it, and that's the only reason I leave you in the dark sometimes, it has NOTHING to do with you, just EVERYTHING to do with me. I'm sorry. I love you.

6. Why aren't you there for me?! You're my mother. I should be allowed to mess up. Why don't you let me?! Why do I have to be perfect?! Is it my fault you're married to a screwed up man, and that you raised your first daughter wrong?! Should I be punished and preassured because of your mistakes?! Did you know that this preassure is the only reason that the razor blade gets preassured against my skin?!

7.I know you think 2 girls in a relationship is disgusting, but I though you should know that I want you so bad.