[Slade]

Did you know, living with you, makes me want my ED's back? I'd shit if I was as fat as you are. You honestly repulse me, how could you eat almost every fucking thing in the house? You've got you some serious issues, and I really can't wait for you to start high school. I hope you start public school then, I wanna see people treat you like shit. "Oh she's just 10, leave her alone." Bullshit. If she wants to play games with me, let's go bitch. "She's in a broken home..." HAHA. GET THE FUCK OVER YOURSELF. God. An you think I'm not either? This sympathy shit for you, has got to go. This is life. Get over it. I hate you, so much. I hope you move out soon, and your mother becomes even more unaware of you than she already is...

Daddy, go fuck yourself. Kay, thanks.

I wish it was Tuesday, but with us, I wish alot. I wish you understood how stressed I am right now, but you, blissfully unaware of how I feel, because I guess you're too wrapped up in trying to get away from me to see, I'm basically only alive because you love me. You break my heart, you really do. In all honesty, you need to learn to trust me, this repetitive cutting yourself down, and saying I love you, is only making YOU push yourself away from me, it is really tiring to have to repeat myself so many times a week. Learn to trust me, I still love you, I still care about you, I still wanna be with you, I still wanna marry you. The deal sealer? Dinner Tuesday. You need to understand, I just wanna be with you, survive school, and eventually tell my family "Go fucking choke on it." Patience is key, I wont ever forget about you when I go back to school, that's part of loving someone, all you can think about is them, right? right. So just get some confidence in yourself and we'll be okay, I promise you I love you. Why can't you see that? I put so much effort into talking to my dad about this week, it is killing me. Like I've always said, I put you first. I just wish you knew the extent of how much I loved you. When you come, I'll show you. I promise. I didn't have a fight with my dad in walmart yesterday for nothing. I'm fighting for you, for me, for us, and for our life togeather. I really do love you.