[L'espoir]

I just don't think you understand do you? You are not helping by trying to push me into doing things i am not able to do. You are pushing me beyond my limits and I can't cope with it all. It makes me want to slash my arms because I feel so guilty when you go on at me. I know she came over for my birthday but I cant go out for hers because Im too fucking scared to leave the house. I dont need you to remind me what a shitty pathetic person I am for that and how Im not a good friend because of it... I can work that out by myself. Sometimes I think you actually want to make me cry and cut my wrists