Hey,
It will get better. I know things probably seem crappy now but things cant stay like that forever. And the fact that you've endured so much already just proves how strong you are. You should be proud of that and acknowledge it. You can't stop fighting, theirs so much more out their. And most of it GOOD. You just have to try to stay positive and take care of yourself. It sounds like your coping by starving and hurting yourself. Their are other solutions. Their are other and better and more useful alternatives. You just got to have a little hope and faith. If their is anything i can help you with let me know. I'm here for you,
pm anytime
take care and keep strong
- Hannah