[DarkBlaze13]

As Melissa said, do not feel stupid about posting anything on this site. This place is meant for posts such as that.

Now...first of all, what how your father treats you is wrong. You should not have to put up with such behavior.
Second of all, everyone deserves life and don't let what anyone else says sway you. For the way your father treats you, you shouldn't even listen to him, or at least take to heart what he says.
I know that can be difficult because he is your father and part of your family, but you should somehow learn to disconnect yourself in such a way from his words so it won't affect you as badly as they seem to.
Also, you should find someone to talk to. A trusted friend, another family member, a counselor...because talking to someone does help and they can give you support and advice...or just a shoulder to cry on.
And I can relate with you on the family thing...I long for such things as well and will even get jealous in regards to my friends' families...
But I have surrounded myself with people who truly care and love me and whom I consider family even if we are not related by blood.
Try your hardest to perhaps do something similar...this way, if you don't have your family to go to, you always have love and support from others.

Then perhaps when you are stronger, confront your father directly. Maybe even ask someone else to be with you for support.
But only do so when you are ready.
It will be tough, and you may not be ready for some time, but it is something to think about, considering how much he seems to have hurt you.

Always remember, though, that you do deserve to live. And there are always people who cares about you.