[xxpaigiexx]

I need to get over you because you're not unhappy about me.
I realise I meant nothing to you.
I really need to cry... I miss things about you.
It's stupid I was miserable with you and you know what I don't feel much better right now. I just wished you could hold me and tell me you love me ONE more time even if it was one big lie.
I so badly need to hear those words from you.
I still love you... I've always said don't cry over someone who won't cry over you but right now I need to so badly.
I just need to get rid of some of this pain.
I can't believe I'm saying this but I need you.
I've never wanted to need you and right now you do. Regardless of all the bad things you say and do you still managed to make me crack a smile.
You're suck a wanker... but at least I knew you were mine. I don't want you back I just want to speak to you so I had some form of normality.
You never made me feel special, never once took me on a date... I wouldn't have cared if you didn't spend any money, just took me somewhere special me and you. I just wished I had some sort of sign you cared... but I have none. I can't believe how stupid I was to ever let you into my life.
Funny how in such a short amount of time you made such an impact, meant so much to me- still do.
I know I have to move on from you... I just want something to hold onto for now... just for a short time.
I almost cried the other week because a fucking bubble bath smelt just like you do. I wanted to smell it forever. I laid in the bath smelling the bubble bath how stupid is that.
You'd laugh if you saw how pathetic I am being right now.
You are the best and worst thing that ever happened to me.
I really wish I could say I regret the time spent with you but I don't, because without you I would have never learnt to properly love.