[bitesize]

I'm starting to get annoyed at you. I haven't seen you since the fucking Leaving Cert. Remember we were supposed to go out that night together to celebrate?¿ But you never bothered getting in touch with me.

It's been over a month, Kerrie. It feels like you don't care about me any more. Maybe you don't. But why are you complaining about not getting invited to parties or about people not texting you about events any more when you won't fucking bother with us?¿ We've stopped inviting you places because we know you won't go. You don't even bother to refuse, you just don't reply to our texts or answer our calls. If we call you at home they'll tell us you're out with Paul and you'll call us when you're home later... but you never do. What's the point in asking you to come somewhere?¿ We might as well not waste the credit.

That's another thing. We're all happy for you and we're glad that you've found a great guy that you can be happy with, but since you got with him it's like the rest of the world don't exist. You spend all your time with him now. there's not much of an excuse really... I'm in a happy relationship, but I don't spend ALL day EVERY day with Oisin. I spend plenty of time with my friends too. What would you do if anything happened with him?¿ Of course we'd be there for you, but it's like you'd just expect us to still be there after you've ignored us all for the past two months.

...And I would never, never, ever ditch my fucking best friend on her eighteenth birthday. Ever. Jesus, I'm so angry with you for that. She's your best friend. Remember on your eighteenth?¿ We all took time out of our schedules to come over and spend the day with you and we put time into getting yuor presents?¿ And then Shessie's birthday comes along IN THE SUMMER, when we actually HAVE plenty of time because the LEAVING CERT IS OVER, and you tell her you're sorry, but you're spending the weekend with Paul. The whole fucking weekend, and you couldn't take an hour out of one day to see your best friend on her birthday?¿ it's not like Paul lives more than twenty minutes away either. What the fuck is wrong with you?¿

You kept going on and on this year about how you never wanted to lose touch with us even when we'd all gone off to different colleges. But you already have.