[AshtrayHeart]

Have you had a mental illness?

I haven't been diagnosed but I have been told many times I may have it and I myself am 99.9% sure I have the problem it's not so much a problem I don't know what you call it but I'm a pathological Liar. I can't stand even saying it. I feel so ashamed.

Have you faced any discrimination for being mentally ill?

When people first started telling me I had this they all put me to aside like there was something wrong with me which there was, I was on a site we were all great friends but when I found out I had this one of them posted a thread telling everyone on that side that I had this disorder and a big row started, I felt so alone and wrong - I wanted to die to be quite honest with you, I wanted help straight away and I wanted it to stop and they've all left me behind now but thanks to someone, I've gotten over that I've learnt to fight against it on my own and I'm so much better than I used to be I can now admit to lieing just about of course I still tell the odd one thats just the way it is. Pathological lieing is Just like drug abuse, alcohol abuse, and self harm, it's an addiction its a way for me to get attention and feel loved because I feel so left out.

Are there any positive things you have learned from having a mental illness?

I guess it helped realise why I was like I was, if that makes sense it makes me understand people a lot better too, people like me - I know alot of people are frowned upon and looked at badly for being a pathological but people have to remember it's just like an addiction a person doesn't realise there lieing until they've done it, they believe there own lies. No one wants to be a liar.


Okay, I kind of went over the top there sorry, I still feel so ashamed saying I have it and just writting it down, none of my family have it only a few friends know I have this and I hate it - I feel like I'm being constantly judged and people don't believe things because of this when I'm telling the truth - I do know when I'm lieing now and I try my very best not too but It's so hard. I wish i didn't have it but I have to learn to deal with it.
Please don't judge me on this, I know alot of people do and will in the future..