Faith, you can make things better. If you shut everyone else out, how can they help you? I know how much pain you're in, but Shaz is right, all you'll do by killing yourself is spread and multiply that pain. Why do that when you CAN get better and just get rid of the pain altogether?
Sure, I have a couple other friends on
TH, but that won't make losing you any easier. Just don;t do it.