[Perplexity]

Hi Faith,

I've looked at this thread a couple of times tonight and coming back, wondering what to say. Thinking about how much I can relate to some of the things that you are saying and going through. I honestly don't know what to say and what I am going to say will make things any better. One thing that I know is true and that others do as well, is that your NOT alone with any of this, not at all, your reaching out to us, telling us what is going on, giving us the chance to help you. Faith, this is not your time to go, not now, not in a long time. Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.” That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now.

Suicide, however, takes your pain, and spreads it to every single person you have ever touched, ever met and ever known. Suicide makes your depression contagious - but that's not the worst part really.

The worst part is you can get through this and move on in your life, so don't waste it on suicide. You have the power to not only save hundreds of people pain, but to also save your own life and get through this.

A lot of people criticise the idea that we shouldn't end our lives to save others suffering. That it would be selfish to ask them to have us suffer through our pain. But why would people who love and care you want you to live with this depression?

Because - you will live after this depression. You won't live after suicide. Remember that suicide is permanent. There is no going back after it.

Even when things get hard and people will urge you on, even for their sake, they're not trying to spare themselves from their pain, but they are trying to help you through.

The reality is, you mean something to someone. You may not believe me. I'm not going to force you to. There have been times where I have felt like I have meant nothing to nobody.

Our minds - when clouded by depression - can be so focussed on the idea that we are alone we forget there are people who care about us. So if you think you're alone, and your death won't affect anyone - I ask you to ask someone who knows you about that. See what they say.

Suicide does affect those around you. Faith, it's not your time to go. You ARE strong, your still here, fighting and talking to us, you made this thread didn't you? People have replied to it because they care about you and want to support you through this tough time. How do you know that things are always going to be like this? Faith, your only 17. Think about it. 17. Life is just beginning, there is so much in life still for you to discover and in that time things can change. These tough times don't last but tough people do and you, you are one of them.

I am always around if you need to talk, anytime. My PM box is always open if you want to talk. I'm not sure if this post helped at all, but I just wanted to let you know that I DO care and that your not alone with this.