[Far From Perfect]

You have no idea how much I love you.. You always so you love me more but I know for a fact that isnt true. If you loved me as much as I loved you than you would quit doing drugs for me like you promised you would try. You dont understand how much it hurts me.. I'm scared your going to hurt me... Loving you as much as I do hurts you know.. if you loved me as much as I loved you it wouldnt hurt though. I havent been this happy in a long time.. but i also havent been this sad in a long time either.. im either extremly happy or really sad... right now im sad... your off doing all these things.. and your bestfriend is the one making me feel better... shouldnt you be the one doing that? he tells me sweet things that he would do that your not doing.. i kind of like him.. which i feel bad about.. i still love you with all my heart and soul.. but i still like him a lil bit.. this wouldnt have happend if you would have kept your promise you made me... you said you would do your best in the relstionship.. and you were gonna try your best not to fuck anything up.. yeah... i never want you to promise me anything ever again... it will only hurt me more.. i cant stop crying..i love you so much. i miss you so much. i wanna be in your arms right now.. but if i was with you right now you would see me crying.. and i dont want you to know how upset this makes me.. its stupid.. ive been talking to your bestfriend all night.. well its moring now cuz we pulled an all nighter.. cuz you fell asleep while texting me.. but whatever.. i love you so much... i just wish that you loved me as much as i love you...