[ThePunkAlien]

When you don't have the ability to take care of a child, the woman has two choices she can be weak by aborting or strong by putting the child up for adoption. My Mom was strong, she went with adoption. Like all women in this situation she was poor, my father ran off on her, she went through it alone because of the way the country thinks about pregnancy prior to marriage - a lot more so than here in the states. Not one of those led her to abort me out of fear, she remained strong and brave with no one there to help her through and helped provide a better life for me. THAT woman is a hero, she made the hardest decision anyone can make.

I have more experience than any girl who has a stable pregnancy could ever get. Because it's my origins. It's something both her and I went through, which is hard to explain - but, it's kind of like sharing souls for nine months. As someone personally connected to this I am naturally more attached to it than any girl who has never been pregnant or has a stable pregnancy & especially those who grew up with their natural parents. It runs through my veins and in my blood.

I am still very much connected to that moment in time when I was taken away as are others. I won't be afraid to admit that I repressed a couple of times to PRIMAL degrees for a woman I've never even seen. I've felt it true to my core though. I was frozen solid once, afraid and angry. The other time I broke down and cried while just wanting to be back with her. Keep in mind, I never met her. These experiences many adoptees can account for and have told of. So, there is an inherent connection - a connection that's felt in the heart for someone we never met. That says a lot, that alone speaks volumes. How do I know I remember being the embryo? Because I grew nine months inside her and that's how she flows through me. Look in any books about adoptees and orphans, you will see the IMMENSE research that has been put into the embryotic stage of life - and how, contrary to what people may think, are alive.

I miss her, I always will. But, I am thankful for what she did for me and I'm happy to be alive.