Hey Faith, sorry you're not doing very good.
The doctor was down your throat or your mom was? If the doctor knows you're depressed, are they still insisting you don't need a therapist? If so, they are being absolutely horrible.
I know you say you don't want help and you don't want to be happy, but why not? If all the pain could be gone and you could still be alive here with us, why would that be a bad thing? I know that, if you really want that, it will happen, you just have to want it.
You're really a great person. I know you try to convince yourself and everyone else of how horrible you are and how you don't deserve happiness, but it's just not true at all. Honestly, you're really awesome and you don't deserve to feel this way. I know so many selfish, mean people that are happy. If they can be happy, then you more than deserve to be happy. I don't think you have a mean or selfish bone in your body. And when you're not feeling really down, you're just a really, really fun person. You have no idea how much fun I have talking to you. I can be
and then I get a
PM from you and I'm like
I know you can do this, like Darren said, this WILL improve. We all believe in you and I'm always going to be here for you no matter what happens, ok?
Stay strong, you can do this!