Hey y'all, since my family has been forcing me to eat, I have been toying with
th idea of finding another way of losing weight like purging the food that I eat because then I won't gain weight. I know it sounds stupid probably but, I can't help it. Especially where my Anorexia has come to a point where I'm obsessive about losing weight and starving myself. And I have been trying to stop it's just that I'm not strong enough to do it and I can't go to an intreatment program because I have only 2 and a half days left of school for this year and I can't miss any school because if I do, I'll fail 2 of my classes for sure. And even though my health is important, I can't miss school because I already missed at least a week and a half of school because of my Anorexia. I was getting treatent for the acid stomach I got from my stavation. I'm supposed to be expected to get an ulcer if I continue starving myself. And that still doesn'tstop me and I HATE myself for what I do. I just can't do it. Like I said before, my obsession with losing weight is too strong for me to keep under control by myself.