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Originally Posted by shanadian
As I said, I don't believe I have hypochondria because I want to be disabled, it's because I think I have everything I hear about! If I had had a cold recently, I would have been scared that I had swine flu and made my mom take me to the doctor's most likely.
Anyways, my OCD involves things being even, symmetrical, matching, etc. I cannot stand open doors if the other doors are open. If there are two closed doors and a third open one I will have an extremely strong urge to close it. I am lazy as hell and hate doing work but sometimes I have the compulsion to clean things. If it were up to me, roads would all be perfect straight lines and never curve but have 90 degree corners. And I would like to never have to mentally grapple with a triangle...
I used to cut myself a lot but I haven't done it for over a year and I'm a little scared to try to amputate anything... I have been having a crazy couple of weeks but I actually have been feeling pretty darn awesome in the past couple days.
I was trying to think and I decided that my strongest urge is to be missing my right leg...
My counselor told me that I abused the right side of my body because I am left-handed. Had to do with the two sides of my brain, and the right brain trying to silence the left brain, or something like that.
So maybe that's similar.
And if they thought I had Munchausen's or Body Integrity Identity Disorder (that's what I had heard of), I don't even WANT to think of what they'd do. I'd be put in a pyschriatic hospital before you can say Prozac.
It would be better if I did not have any more issues, but of course if I do have a problem then I've gotta get that fixed.
It's not so much I feel that my leg is extra, it's more like I feel like I want it gone... Kinda like a drastic haircut, except my leg won't freaking grow back.
My life would be a lot harder (Gym Credits will be harder to get I'm guessing) in most ways, but somehow it still appeals to me and I want to have something ostensibly wrong with me
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I have no clue what your counselor was on with the right half trying to "silence" the left half. To me, that part sounds completely, 100% nonsense.
If you don't tell the doctors or counselor about the symptoms regarding BIID, then of course, they're going to have less of a way to know. However, you'll be left to try to battle it out yourself. There's a video on youtube of the Jerry Springer show (not a fan of it) but in one episode, they bring out someone diagnosed with BIID. However, it's your choice if you wish to tell them about it or not.
But I'm curious, why do you want to loose the right leg more than the left leg?