[Through-Glass]

Shannon,

I think that speaking with your counselor about this is an excellent idea. I think we all have had that desire to have something wrong with us; it's not that people want to be hurt, but sometimes we want more nurturing than we are currently getting. However, your feelings do seem a bit excessive, so I think it is reasonable to speak to someone about this.

In the mean time, try to consider what part of having a disability appeals to you. Is it the extra attention you would recieve? Perhaps you just have the need to feel taken care of? I think that if you can explore these feelings, it might help you cope with them better.

Take care, and feel free to contact me if you'd ever like to talk about anything. =]