[Anonymous19]

You know on the outside, if you ever know me, I seem like a very laid back guy who always seems to have a joke for everything and doesn't have a care in the world. But if people knew what was going on, on the inside, and all the anger which is basically a mask for the fact that I'm still unbelieveably sad. Its a real far cry from what basically everyone sees. I try to play it off and make it seem like everything is great and that I'm fine and happy but I'm still crying on the inside and I have absolutly no idea why; maybe I'm lonely, maybe I just hate myself. Its probably both and a another thing that I can't see yet, but in anycase I'm still going to move on with a fake smile on my face because thats all I can do, and I'm not going to allow myself to wallow in my own self-pity. I refuse to let myself get me down because one day, I'm going to beat this shit and hopefully find real happiness and content...I just hope its soon =/