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Ed vent and advice? -
March 20th 2025, 11:29 PM
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so I gained over editedpounds after starving myself for months...I feel guilty and shameful and bad for this...I'm thinking about starving myself again. To the point I'd go to the hospital bad if anybody in my hometown actually found out how bad my thoughts are. I want to kill myself because I gained weight. I want to never eat again...let alone LOOK at food. I know if I starve myself I'll end up back in the hospital again and that's what I'm trying to avoid, I just want to be small...small and happy...whether that means I get an iron deficiency and become anemic or I become skin and bones I want to be fucking small. I want to be skinny. I weigh edited and I'm 5'4, which means my bmi is edited...Why can't I fucking my skinny?!?! Why can't I be small...why can't I have a lower number on the scale...I'm dying to be smaller...you know what? I'm going to fucking starve myself until I'm skin and bones, because it'll make me happier...just to be smaller than this. I would give ANYTHING to be smaller than this.
Last edited by ¯|_(ツ)_|¯; March 21st 2025 at 11:38 PM.
Reason: Weight figures are not allowed in the ED forum.
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