[Em0bxy]

Self-harm is the only thing I have. It makes me feel alive in the worst ways. The blood pouring from my arms reminds me I'm human. Fuck it, I ain't gonna even try to recover, cause shit, it's all I have. People don't fucking care anymore, I swear to god. It's like I'm living in my head at this fucking point. Self-harm keeps me from killing myself, but in a way, I'm trying to kill myself with self-harm. The scars remind me of a time of suffering and pain, but I don't give two fucking shits at this point. I just wanna die. I can't fucking live in this world no more. not after the abuse...not after almost dying...not after the hospital trips. I can't do this anymore!! I have no reason to live anymore. Self-harm is the best thing I have right now. Not that it changes it pain for others, it hurts me, which is my goal. Pain and suffering toward a cowardly person. Fucking kill me already I swear...