[Xx_darkflameninja_xX]

i've been staring at the screen for like 15 minutes not knowing how much to share and what to leave out
so if it sounds like i'm rambling
sorry
the only reason i'm here is because a friend of mine recommended this place
idk how much i'm gonna get outta this but here it goes

i'm 12. i've been fighting with my mom for a year now that i don't need a babysitter
she insists that i do. queue up this weekend
she and her rich boyfriend went to go celebrate "pre valentimes day" since he made a huge bonus at this bank he works at or owns or w/e
that meant this weekend i was supposed to be babysit by my uncle (mom's bro)
which he did

anyways the entire time he's over he's being a jerk
like i mean he's saying some awful things and calling me names
first it was just "show off" which isn't that bad but then he called me "freak of nature"
and i had no idea what he was talking about so i yelled back at him
he shoved me and i threw something at him
hard

i have anger issues if it weren't obvious...

so earlier today... i guess yesterday by this time i can't even sleep rn...
basically i broke his nose
mom and her bf came home early and were PISSED at me and took his side
i tried to tell them my side of the story and mom actually listened which was good
but then my uncle sent her pic related and said that i was "mocking him"
he took that pic while sitting next to me w/o my consent...

so here's the thing...
i know that i have a gigantic d*ck and b*lls (got them from my dad who passed away we at least had "the talk" when i was showing changes back in 3rd grade)
but i don't try to brag about it because it's personal and everyone's beautiful in their own way
but my uncle thinks that because i hate being babysit i was showing that part of me off
that i tried to piss him off on purpose and get him in trouble
that way it would be harder for mom to find a babysitter for me and i'd be free to do whatever
because yeah this is DEFINITELY something i planned

like i was just looking through this place and there's dudes who all agree underwear basically sucks
i'm in my own home and i want to relax so i'm not wearing underwear
but at least i'm wearing sweats... but i guess that's not good enough

mom is on my side but her bf and my uncle are all against us rn
i just needed to vent ig
i didn't choose to have huge parts
i just do
i've been able to deal with the problems it causes before today
but now that i've hurt my uncle and may have ruined mom's relationship...
idk

i prolly shouldn't be sharing this kinda info in the middle of the night when i'm still shaking and haven't slept
maybe i'll even forget i posted this idk
thanks for listening to my ted talk ig