[Hiraeth.]

I'm so sorry all these things have happened in your short life! It sounds like a burden to be carrying these traumatic memories, especially at such a young age. I would strongly suggest finding a mental health therapist that you can talk through these traumas with. They can help you find a way to cope safely, heal these wounds, and move on with your life. Especially if they're no longer things you are dealing with at the moment; nobody should be holding on to these things as if they've just happened. You deserve to move on, let those wounds become healed scars, and live your life.

Wishing you nothing but the best of luck.