[Hiraeth.]

I would strongly encourage you to get help, and soon. Dez and Emmie provided extremely useful tips and resources. Suicide is final, there's no coming back from a successful suicide attempt. While you'll be free of your pain, the people you leave behind won't be. They'll have to live with the guilt wondering what they could've done to save you or wondering why you did what you did without asking for help.

Ambulances can be expensive, but call an Uber or a Lyft rideshare service. Talk to your parents and have them take you to the emergency room, or a friend to do it if you don't want to tell your parents. You have a boyfriend, I'm sure he'd be more than happy to help you out during this time and think of how he'd feel when he goes to school Wednesday morning and find out you died.

I'm not trying to make you feel guilty or shame those who take their lives; but there are other options out there besides death.