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suicidal ideation...[VENT] -
December 23rd 2024, 12:22 AM
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[SIZE="a"]so...i want to kill myself. have for three years. im telling my therapist tmrw cus idk if imma act on it or not and tbh i expect the hospital again. i don't wanna be fucking alive. i wanna cut and cut and not stop. i want to fucking end everything. i want to stab myself in the chest and watch the blood pour out of my until i die. i don't wanna fucking deal with my mental illness. this all makes my stomach hurt, i wanna kill myself so damn much. i'm honestly expecting another round of inpatient...fucking wonderful. oh ms. marcus would be so disappointed. she said "that's hard work getting out of JC"...and now i'm back there...and probably gonna end up back FUCKING inpatient. fuck my damn life. fuck. everything. god i wish i was dead. i wish i could stab myself. i wish i could hang myself. i wish i could fucking overdose. i wish i could take all the pain away. i'm 20 days clean today...might become 0...
oh...but i know i can't act on it...i know i won't.[/size]
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