[TherianLOVER]

Okay, for a while I identified as trans ftm, he/they, and went by Ashton. Lately, my parents have been forcing a standardized female gender role on me, and it feels almost right. Now I'm wondering if the trans was a phase. I've been going by my bio name, and she/her again, and I barely recognize it outside of home. "Madison, I like your shirt" Oh...you're talking to me. It feels weird. Not right, not wrong, weird. Different. "Madison said that the assignment was easy for her, do you agree?" Oh..you're talking about me. It feels weird. Not right, not wrong, weird. Different. Again. I'm bisexual, and now I'm wondering if I'm straight because I'm realizing I only liked one girl, ever. What's going on?? I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. When I started going by Ashton, I never got the weird, stomach tensing feeling, I got a neutral feeling, something better than what I feel by using my old name. Idk what to do. I want my parents to be happy, so I might just stay going by Madison in places.

Any advice??
Thanks,
Madison...?