[Ennui.]

I’m so sorry this happened! My mom took my phone away for a while when she found out I was self harming too.

I’d try to sit down with your mom one last time, but make sure she is in a decent mood when you do it. I wouldn’t directly blame her by saying “you did this” but instead use “I statements” like “I feel like I have to be exactly like my siblings and that makes me feel (emotion),” or “I felt powerless when my phone was taken away. Here’s more information on what it means to self harm (share information such as that it’s a coping mechanism that can turn into an addiction).” Alternatively you can write her a letter where you get everything out without nerves or interruptions getting in the way.

Is there anyone you trust who you can get support from such as another family member, doctor, religious leader, or another trusted adult? It can help to have someone on your side who you can talk to about what’s going on without judgement.

Also try and find things to do to replace self harm. My favorite thing to use is ice on my neck and forehead. The ice packs provide a reset to your body, and also gives you another sensation that may help you feel better.