[Enigmatic.]

You are most certainly not alone! I was about the same age as you, 31/32, when it hit me that my parents are getting old. They'll both be turning 70 next year. While they're still relatively healthy,, I know illness and death can come on pretty quickly. Now I'm 38 and am trying to take better care of myself, and mentally prepare for that awful moment when they're not there to answer my texts if I need them. I think the best way to do that is surround yourself with trustworthy people and a lifestyle that will sustain your well-being for after your parents pass away.

For me, I know I need to start saving money even though I don't have a paying job. I know I need to work on my interpersonal skills so I can have and maintain friendships. I know I need to focus on my physical fitness, make better dietary choices, and abstain from alcohol permanently.

It's not easy, so definitely find a support group that is outside of your family.