[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]some stuff happened recently. yesterday i collapsed at the hospital after a bloodtest because i didnt drink water nor did i eat before. my mom told my dad about it and my dad got mad at my sister, saying its her fault why i dont enjoy anything anymore and why im always so tired etc. when i got home my sister told me about it. she asked if thats true (that i dont feel enjoyment anymore etc) and i said yes then she asked if i was depressed, and she started sobbing. i laughed and said that its not abig deal and stuff. so basically my sister knows now that im depressed, and she stopped fighting with me. im planning on telling her to tell my mom about my depression when im at school.

and also uh. my online friend posted about drinking beer, when theyre only 13yo, and like. i want to drink beer too. i wanna get drunk and forget about everything and fill my emptiness with something. and back to my friend. i feel so sorry and bad about them..... theyre 13 years old only....... and now everytime i see their posts it just mentally drains me. i dont know.[/size][/color][/font]