[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]its better now. aslong as u do what shes telling u to right in time she doesnt hit anyone. so i dont wanna report her to anyone i dont wanna ruin my whole family bc of that. in 4 years when im 19 im going to another city to study for psychology (i wanna be a psychologist) and my parents are supportive with that anyways.

me and my sister generally do get along but i dont like talking with her abt these stuff bc i always try not to think abt it, thats why im also addicted to phones / computers, they make me forgot abt my family and depression.

ive been thinking of telling my sister before sleep to tell my mother that im depressed. i cant tell her directly abt the depression bc then she will hug me and sobs and say sorry and then i will forgive her again and then the enxt day nothing will change. so i want my sister to tell her while im not here (at school), and during that time she will be thinking about what my sister said and probably leave me a message or call me, which is better than telling her face to face[/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font]