[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]Somedays I have a very hard time eating, it can take me over an hour just to eat something simple like yogurt for example and then other days I can eat breakfast or lunch or dinner. On the days that it's hard to eat, I have on my headphones and I'm listening to music to try to help myself eat and I get so upset when it's taken me forever to eat. I have a problem with food, I've had it for a while and now I need to get help. The problem is I don't like to bother others about what I'm going through and I need a therapist or a eating disorder treatment center to help me. I'm on my parents insurance, I don't want them to know about this because they are not together anymore, everyone else in my family is always so busy so I don't want to bother someone. Sometimes I'll make myself sick because I always feel so fat and I hate myself so much I cry and want to be alone. I feel like I'm not a good person for doing this to myself.[/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font]