[Dawn.]

Over the past couple of days, my mental health has taken a hit. This past couple of years has been difficult for me in a few ways. From Covid to my Grandmother passing away to working several jobs at once to studying and planning a wedding all at once, I feel like I'm just feeling extremely overwhelmed and anxious. Because of this, my motivation levels have dropped significantly as well as my energy. All I want to do is sleep and just lie around. I really haven't been looking after myself.

This past month, I have resigned from my bartending and tutoring job. Because I left the tutoring position, I have lost a friend because I had to leave abruptly due to my mental health and I was starting my new job on Monday. I was severally burnt out and still am. The reason why I left so quickly was because I felt like I was no use to anyone because of how I was. My friend ran a tutoring business and I worked for her. Thankfully, things worked out on her end in terms but that doesn't excuse my behavior.

All I have been thinking about is how my past will come to bite me in the backside even though there is no evidence that I have done anything wrong. However, I am continuously thinking that I have without doing so and I have hurt someone or I will get in trouble for it.

These past couple of days since I have reduced my work hours have been wonderful. I have taken the time to catch up on the much needed rest and to be able to do what I want to do. Yet at the same time, I still feel so down and I thought by now that I would be recovered. Obviously, this is going to take a lot more time to get back to where I need to be.