[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]my ex boyfriend was a complete sociopath and would cheat on me and make me feel crazy and that everything was my fault, and i just can't get over the way i felt and how defensive i had to be 24/7, and its making me super defensive and gives me trust issues in this new relationship with an amazing boy. i never knew i was being cheated on or that my ex was a terrible person until he lost interest in me and would break up with me, and i cant shake the feeling of not knowing everything and that i'll find out something that hurts me. i know that me not trusting my bf hurts him, but ive opened up to him and he's always been there for me, but i'm scared i'm gonna drain him because of how many problems i have. that might be because my ex would tell me that anyone i got into a relationship with would love me, but would get tired of me and id ruin their mental health. i just dont know what to do to help myself and keep these problems from hurting my relationship.[/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font]