[TH Anonymous]

[SIZE="a"]I have been struggling with food in general and weight. I don’t have a good relationship with food. I don’t have a good relationship with my body.

Some days I eat normally; my normal is typically twice or three times a day - typically twice a day. I don’t snack either. On the other days I eat once a day.

When I say “eat” it’s literally buying a drink and chocolate bar to get me to actual food in a few hours. Which to me equals eating twice.

I am not home often enough; I am and can make food and have done so. When I am working long days and get home I have ordered something in as all I had was fluids.

It’s difficult to eat in general, not because I am working, I am not hungry. I am having more issues with food. I already use laxatives here and there. I am being shamed and being made fun of for ordering food in by neighbours, I barely do.

When I am waiting in the lobby or outside they assume I am there waiting for food delivery. One late evening I did order as I did not eat that day and the day before I barely ate; they came in and shamed me. They threw coupons that were in the ground at me and was told to use them.

When I returned back with my order; I cried before I could even eat something. I ended up throwing half of it in the garbage and just feeling guilty.

It happened today, only that I wasn’t waiting for delivery and I was asked twice and I said no both times.

I am almost close to telling them off and never interact with me again. Today, I cried again and it wasn’t even about food. I was somehow chastised on it for waiting outside.

It’s gotten to the point that I am careful what food I bring home or items. I am scared of being put down. It’s making it worse for me. I am not sure what to do.[/size]