[Kate*]

Maybe I should've known, (and have since learned) not to trust you/anyone with that much information. But, your failed attempt to gaslight me in response, instead of just telling me the truth, has stuck with me for almost 10 years. It's because I trusted you and you blew it that I haven't trusted since. You went from one of my favorite people, to someone I lost all respect for in a split second. So, when I say people turned on me, you're top of the list. And I wish that wasn't what I remembered about you.

I figured out a long time ago that you can't be who I need, and started the process of grieving what I would never have. Can't or won't doesn't really make much difference when the final decision was yours, because you'd rather throw a tantrum like a fucking toddler than be an adult. As sad as it may be that you probably won't be there for my major milestones, you would ruin them for me and make them all about you. Now, I don't have to wrestle with the decision to include you, defend myself against the guilt trips of others, or feel the negative emotions that having you present cause me. You never wanted me, you wanted your ideal version of me. You only want to be involved to feed your ego and support your image. You don't want me, and I can accept who you really are while removing that reality from my life.

So, I was right. Everyone else knew before I did and I have a right to be upset about it.

Considering I haven't worked in 5 days, you can't really blame me for an ongoing issue. And the lack of staff is probably part of the problem.