[Just a girl in pain]

I have a therapist, but as caring and compassionate as she is, and despite how much she tries, nothing makes this feeling go away.

I don't really find happiness in anything any more. I haven't for a while now.
I have talked to my friends about it, and they have said they'd try to check in more, but that was a while ago and I just really do not have the strength to bring it up again.

Definitely not that I'm this far into the planning stage.

I've tried hotlines and coping methods and everything, and it helped for a while but even it eventually just stopped helping.
Not any more there's nothing that gives me purpose or a sense of fulfillment.

Tbqh, at this point, im ok with where this is going. If it means it'll all go away and I can just stop hurting, that's ok with me.