[Kate*]

I'm both dreading and looking forward to the conversation I assume we will have tomorrow. You retained me by handling the first one well, which is why I want to trust you this time, but I can't. I've been screwed over, stabbed in the back, and gaslighted so many times; not to mention I'm literally in THERAPY for the way this was done and it's not the first time. You said we could talk to you about anything, and that the last thing you wanted was for people to be afraid to walk into work. You proved it once, I need you to do it again. And if anything about this has me on the verge of tears, it's the fear over how this will go. Because you're human and we can only have this conversation so many times. Eventually, you're going to lose patience with me, and if I trust you completely and don't have my guard up, it will absolutely crush me.

Disagreeing on two points: You can give someone a heads up about something so they aren't blindsided, without handling discipline if it isn't your job. And if they aren't paid more and given full-time etc. partly because they're supposed to make sure we get our breaks, what the hell are they for?!

And just like there are things I shouldn't say at work, there are things you think about me that I will never know. And the sick part of me that's waiting for you to turn on me wants to know what they are.