[Moon]

When I was in the hospital, the first night I was there, they asked how much I drank and how often. So I told them. The psychiatrist suggested that I have a substance abuse problem, specifically alcohol. At first I denied it and said I didn't, but the more I think about it, the more I realize - I turn to alcohol/drinking for everything.
When I got out, I was supposed to get a call from a PHP/IOP that would help with that and the other things I'm struggling with. They never called. I tried calling them.
I know now, that it's a problem. I just.. Don't know how to go about handling it, especially after the people who were supposed to help me, forgot about me. Abandoned me, even. I had clung so hard waiting for that call that never came.
Any time I get upset, or scared, or anxious, I think about getting a drink. I've also noticed, that I've gotten heavier and heavier on the pours recently when I make drinks. I found myself considering lying and asking a friend for money so I could go get more alcohol, which I think is what made me realize how bad this problem actually is now.