[Rika]

Hi there

Welcome to TeenHelp!

I am so sorry to hear you're not feeling/doing well. It's normal for us to feel depressed and go through times like this. It is important we seek healthy ways to cope and handle being depressed, however.

I understand you have attempted suicide before. I am glad to hear that you are not considering it again. I see you mentioned that life is hard for you right now. I also noticed you mentioned second hand suicide. I am sure you did this your children would be sad and miss you if you did it. I am sure your partner also would miss you and become sad if you did go through with it too.

Is there anything you have done in the past to help you feel less depressed and feeling suicidal? When I feel depressed I just watch YouTube videos, watch game streams, and listen to music.

Again, finding healthy ways to cope being depressed is something I'd advise doing. Maybe some distractions even too.