[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]Hi, I own an account on here, but I'm going to look stupid asking this so I made a guest account lol.
Basically, I've been researching different disorders and stuff, but like...it's shocking how much I relate to the symptoms of BPD, or at least for me it is... I'm 14, and so it probably sounds stupid cuz like, doctors really don't diagnose younger teens with personality disorders.
Another thing that kinda invalidates this theory is that I'm not sure if I've really felt consistent romantic love; I've had short bursts with my partner, but most of the time I can't tell what I feel about her. But then, I obsess over her a LOT (almost to an unhealthy amount...and then am kind of numb when I'm with them), and this goes for a lot of my ex-partners.
I really fit with a lot of the other things though;

I disassociate a LOT (at least, I think I do. Only one out-of-body, and I don't even know if it was that, but mostly not being able to move or control my body)

I don't have a clear image of myself, and so I've changed my name, identity, gender, sexuality too many times to count. That might be normal though for teenagers, but I feel like I do it a lot...I don't know, I'm looking too much into it.

Also, I SH for no specific reason other than an urge. I have no explanation for this urge, it just...happens when I feel any sort of emotion whether that be happiness or anger, etc. I know that sounds edgy, but I don't know how to explain. Maybe that's normal? I don't know. It's sickening not being able to explain why I do it/

I'd list all of the things, but I don't want to be annoying. I know it's a stupid question, but it would really explain a lot. I feel like it's not just depression/anxiety, because
(1.) I really don't have much to be depressed about
(2.) I seem to relate much more to, like I said, BPD
(3.) I'm really not sad most of the time, just...explosive. like, I can't control the severity of my emotions

Should I bring this up with my therapist? I brought it up with the nurse at the hospital one time, but she told me to ask my doctor. I was too scared to, though. If I bring this up with my therapist, how should I do it?

Sorry to ramble. thanks if youve read this far.[/size][/color][/font]