For some reason, the
SH label isn't on here- so yeah TW for that.
I'm so paranoid my parents will find out. It's been 4 1/2 months since my last hospital stay, and I DON'T want to go back. But that's what I'm scared will happen if they DO find out. I've been doing it on my upper arms, and even then it's the worst it's ever been. Like, so much so that I was shocked. But I now can't wear tanktops or any other short-sleeved thing. I really don't want my parents to suspect anything's wrong, which I KNOW is wrong of me, but they just don't go about it the right way. They're just too confrontational, and I'm too emotional.
And I don't know, my anger issues have just been out of control lately. Even small things made me SO MAD.
I usually just....bite myself on the hand for the smaller things, which wouldn't be a problem but now I have a bunch of bruises on my hand.
I'm scared that this'll lead me BACK down that path that inevitably gets me sent to the hospital, because this is EXACTLY how it went last time; time frame and everything. And this time there's more at stake because I've vented on here, I've talked about having a girlfriend (I don't want to lose her...), I've vented on pinterest, and ALL of this has been done on my school chromebook (I know, you can scold me, but I literally don't have anything else to vent on. My last therapy session was a month or two ago, and I missed it that time. Idk when my next one is.)
So yeah, Idk.
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