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Hey,

I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way! Remember that even though sometimes it does not feel like it, you are loved and cared about, and people want you here.

Maybe for the friends that you have had a rough time with, you can let things cool off a little and then try talking to them again? Use "I statements" such as "I feel ___ when ___," and not "you statements," which may make the other person defensive. You can let them know that you are sorry for what happened and ask what you can do to fix things and make them right.

As far as your dog goes, training dogs is hard work and it's not your fault! Some animals are just harder to train than others. Have you considered a doggy obedience class to help you along? That way your dog can get some training and you can get some tips from the professionals on how to practice at home. I know you said you've spent money on training lessons before, though, so I understand if you don't want to go this route again. I'm just thinking that maybe trying a different type of class or a different setting may help. Dogs are loving creatures, though, and I bet he loves you a ton, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.

As far as work goes, maybe you can try taking a step back next time and taking a breather before talking to your coworker. You can let them know you'll get back to them about whatever the issue/project/task is soon, but first you need a moment. Then, try taking a walk or doing breathing exercises to calm down.

Do you have anyone to talk to about this, such as a therapist or doctor? I know it's hard to bring these types of things up but it's important to have someone you can talk to without being judged.

You said nothing brings you joy right now. Keep trying old hobbies and things that you used to enjoy, but also try and find new things you can do with your time that you might find that you like, such as something crafty, an exercise, or something else.

These feelings won't last forever. I know you can get through this and come out on top.