[Ragamuffin]

I don’t want to live anymore. It would be better for everyone if I just disappeared. I can’t seem to keep friendships or relationships and those I care about end up hating me eventually. I recently had a falling out with a close friend/colleague and I’m trying to make things right but just seem to make everything worse. I even feel my dog would be better off without me. I seem to be incapable of training him, despite spending so much money on training lessons and aids, nothing works. He ran away while on a walk today and I almost lost him. All this has just sent me over the edge. I don’t seem to feel anything but anger or hurt at the moment and it’s affecting me while I’m at work. I lost my temper the other day and broke down in front of one of my colleagues. I hate feeling this way but I have no motivation to make things better and nothing brings me joy anymore so I just don’t see the point.