So sorry to hear about your loss. I'd suggest talking to somebody you can trust like a friend or a family member. If that doesn't work, maybe a therapist. Those are the ideas I'd suggest if you need somebody to talk to.
We have a nice reasons to live thread
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f11-d...-reasons-live/
and a nice who can help me thread
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f11-d...o-can-help-me/