[hsmith.009]

Ok im gna keep this short bc theres probably more interesting things on here u'd rather be reading but basically my stepdad who ive lived with since i was abt 2/3 (im 13 now btw) ever since i started my period, every time i try to talk to him abt it or even just say something like "can i pls go to the toilet and change pad/tampon" he's like "ew gross dont talk to me abt it go to ur mom" and like ik most middle aged men were raised in a time when periods was taboo and not talked abt but like its a natural body function for a female and i lit can't help it- and like it makes me not want to be a girl anymore bc he thinks periods r so disgusting it makes me feel disgusting and feel like its my fault for being the gender i was born as. I even thought abt being trans to make him stop treating me like that.. also he's got this big thing abt being scared of me getting rp3d irl or groomed online, he thinks just bc i'm autistic idk how to defend myself from pedos, but thats actually not true bc ive probably had the most experience with pedos online- like its literally as easy as pressing one button that blocks them and then u dont have to worry bc they cant get on ur acc again and i'm massively desensitized to stuff like that so it rlly doesnt bother me that much anyway. But whenever im at home with him, mainly when its just us 2, he always plays these wierd vids on yt of ppl interviewing pedos and stuff like that and its like he always plays them on full volume right outside my bedroom door on purpose so i can hear, and that also makes me rlly uncomfortable aswell idk what i can do abt it, idk if i should talk to my mom or what?? Bc its a rlly awkward situation hes putting me in rn.. also theres one other thing whenever i spend longer in the toilet (most of the time its bc im crying tbh but he doesnt need to know that) he accuses me of m@5tvrb4t1g in the toilet- like 1.) Who even does that anyway its disgusting 2.) Thats not even the reason why i'm taking long 3.) id rather do it in bed at night when nobody can hear anyway bc am not an exibitionist like its not like id want my family to know i was doing that, and 4.) Why would that even be the first thing he accused me of, like i get it im a teenager and im a girl, but like not all teens r horny 24/7 like it just feels like he's oversexualising me way too much and making assumptions and getting the wrong idea abt me.. also idk how to talk to my mom or stepdad abt this without making it super uncomfortable and awkward between us like hes just put me in a rlly horrible situation