[Mallika]

Hello Danni,

Thank you for reaching out and I'm so sorry that this has been so tough. It was insightful reading Dez's response as she has/they have been in your shoes before, so I hope those suggestions will help you.

Regarding your feelings, I believe your mind is still processing everything that is happening. It doesn't necessarily mean that you are unable to emote, but rather, it might just be taking time for all these recent events to sink in. Once you've processed it, you'll probably be able to speak freely about your feelings.

Dealing with a cancer diagnosis in the family can be incredibly overwhelming and difficult. I work in a cancer hospital, specifically in a familial cancer syndrome clinic, so I can empathise with what you're going through. One suggestion that I can provide is also what we provide our patients - the hospital will have support resources for family members/the patients which you might want to seek. There will also be support groups which you can be a part of; networking with those who are going through similar experiences as you will hopefully give you a space to express yourself openly.

I found this resource by NIH National Cancer Institute which is aimed at supporting family members/caregivers of those with cancer. Hopefully it can be of some help:

https://www.cancer.gov/publications/...ced-cancer.pdf

I can only imagine how complex things might be right now. Is there a way you can speak with her surgeon? It is only fair that you get the answers you need. If your mother is a Stage IV cancer patient and needed surgery ASAP, you're justified to feel angry and confused as to why the surgeon cancelled her surgery. Alternatively, you might want to speak with any other doctors your mother has seen regarding this.

Please feel free to DM me if you would like to have a chat just to get a load off your chest. This is a difficult time, but you'll emerge stronger

Take care!